Sometimes I wish I could slow down
I’m two steps ahead in my mind.
Never settled in the present
Never savoring whatever the moment reveals.
I look back while I’m looking ahead
And realized I’ve overlooked the gift
Two steps ahead in my mind
I figured I need to get ahead
Too much turmoil in my past
It never amounted to anything
But disappointment and resentment .
I move two steps ahead.
I try to outrun all the pain I’ve felt in the past.
I’m looking two steps ahead.
I’m aways on the defense.
Always avoiding the evil eye, the bickering, the useless fighting.
I am now
I don’t want to be somewhere so unwelcoming as the past.
Staying two steps ahead has kept some part of me from dying.
The part of me that’s as pure as time itself
It’s like I see my life from a distant star
I’m still not here.
My timing is off
If I would slow down-
I’d meet you in the middle
In the present.