Am I Ready?

Everything in life is hard

It’s not enough to understand oneself

But more to learn from our elders

And understand one outside oneself

You taught me some hard lessons

Bruised and beaten I’m willing now

I see you. I know you. I understand.

 I am ready.

Another Coconut

Contemplating my life-

I see-

I am no more than another coconut.

My purpose was to be free-

Yet, I choose to to live in comfort.

Secure from the rain.

A comforting bowl of food awaits me.

It deviates my mission.

My quest for adventure-

My quest for fame-

My desire to find the avenue behind the sun.

I Am Now Free

My worthless moments 

When I let you put me down-

And, I believed it!

I can’t believe how I’ve moved past that now

Being caged and imprisoned –

Like an animal

I had no hope- no light

No life!

There was no me!

I release your footprint on my soul!

I am now free

To be the best of me.

A Wish When You’re Gone

If I had wings that I could fly…..

To find you

Know you

I could fly to the limits of my soul

To find you

Know you

Love you.

But I don’t have those wings….

That is why I pounce upon your every being when you are here.

With me.

That is when I know you.

Love you.

And you love me.

Thieves of Time

Stay away from me

Please-

Let me be my essence- myself.

Let me find my world.

I don’t want to be a prisoner in yours.

I don’t want to be your chained pet.

I don’t want to wear a collar.

One, in which you decide the color.

I came here to fly to my dreams.

Celestial Moon

The moon I see when my eyes are closed. 

I wish I knew what lurks so far away.

Inside my deep celestial moon.

Deep in my heart

Her shadows play.

Plays with the beat I keep deep inside-

Will you find me?

Hiding- behind the light.

Are we connected as one?

My lunacy travels to the heart of those who see me.

You may never understand.

The distance I feel-

I walk away-pulled to the light of the moon.

Which shines bright above- guiding me further away from here-

I become one with the celestial essence.

My ninth life I will rise above this mundane existence. 

I will no longer walk in shadows-

I will shine bright like the light in the sky above.

Inside my deep celestial moon- we will rise above all of this.

Paulding Pound

I’m a lucky cat. 

Someone saw the good in me.

There were so many others who could have been chosen for traits and talents I do not possess.

That’s life in the pound.  The uncertainty.  The fear.  The hope.

Yet this fool saw me and found me pretty enough.

I was foolish as well.

Feeling it was the end.

I scratched and clawed furiously.

Knowing-I would meet the end that happened to my friends.

My friends- they lie and wait behind barred cages. 

Sometimes, meows despair

Waiting and hoping that someone will come for them.

I had never known kindness.

Nor had my friends.

Always caged in fear

The hands on us always meant the end.

Wednesday—the dreaded dawn.

      A judgement sentenced—worth or worthless.

Bad or good – Affectionate or annoying.

  Wednesday— the day we wonder-might I disappear forever like so many before.

    If, no one sees my light. 

If, no one finds me in my lonely cage. 

  Hiding behind the fear of not knowing -Is the end of me?

    I would be your best friend- if you let me.

Will you remember me?

I called to my friends.

   My foolish hope had led me to a new life.

    But, I mourn my friends.

Their fate left in that pound.

Cry against the myth that our lives are nine.

Cry for my friends whose lives are but one.

Cry for the one who saved me from the end.

Cry for my friends whose love can be won.

It’s Now

There is no hope in being who I was.

I can never change the past. I can remember.

It’s just there like a faded photograph.

Time alters and changes to obscurity. 

The image loses its meaning.

Now is the miracle we will remember and the future calling to be fulfilled. 

Here and now is the only place that matters to me- ever.

It is the silver lining.

It is the flame that burns bright.

It is the excitement of a shooting star.

It is the magic that surpasses time.

It is the impossible that lurks behind your fondest wish.

It is the tasty mouse found in in the hole in the baseboard.

It is the meaning of everything that will ever be- or ever has been.

Only now matters-it’s all that is.

A Leaf

The pain was too much to bear.

So, I blew like a leaf in the wind.

Landing on something that felt real

So that I would not fly away from this earth.

Even though, it was all that I wanted to do.

My tears swell in the mist.

Time shatters all that I am.

All that I would have ever been.

Hope is like an eclipse that is just too far to see.

Unreachable- 

I only ask to be who I was.

Pure in essence.

With a dream that matters.

To be myself-once again.