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When is it enough?

Where there’s garbage that’s thrown at you-

Who determine’s my level of worth?

Who’s world are we in?

Is it a human world, or is it a cat’s world?

Your perceptions don’t fit in my world…

I know my worth!

I’m a cat…

I own this world!

Fun is all I want today

Just to have fun-

To walk in the sun

And, to feel the soft shadows of light touching my face

And, the warmth of your eyes gazing brightly towards me

To anticipate a leap of faith that brings us closer to the center of our being

I want to be excited to see you again

I want to fly to the part of you that resides high above the stars

My heart reaches far from the place I am now

But I know it’s there 

I feel it with every part of my being 

It’s true that all this fun is buried deep inside me…

Waiting to shine out and bring that light to you

Am I wrong to want better from you?

You feed me a few nibbles- 

The same thing you fed me the day before.

You don’t know me-

I keep looking to you- for you-

In hopes of change-

You can’t see what I really need.

What I want.

You see what you believe.

I am a picture of a cat 

In your mind.

No substance behind the image you see.

Please don’t poison me with your cat concepts-

You have no clue what you are dishing out.

I watch you in disdain.

It’s like you overlook what it takes to keep me alive-

In essence.

Slow poison. 

You don’t know.

My old friends-

I’ve changed.

I’m not who I used to be when we met.

I can’t understand you anymore.

You are not where I want to go.

I want to follow my own path-

Away from the gossip and the pretentious barking.

You prefer the path well walked-

Safety and comfort of the subordinate life.

You play the part. You’re always served.

You look different now-

Or, do I.

Like a stray-

I don’t fit in.

You’ve changed.

I’ve once walked with you, but no more.

You are not my destiny.

Your fancy comforts-

My soul rejects.

We have nothing in common anymore.

Our desires are not in line-

We don’t see eye to eye.

I would rather walk alone.

There are people who hate me just because I’m a cat.

The only reason!

They say, “ I hate cats!”

They don’t care to get to know, “me”!

What I believe , who I am, my virtues, my flaws.

They just say they hate cats!

They judge me before I can even meow!

What if I said, “ I hate humans!”

They’re all the same!

What kind of cat would I be then?

Pretty unpleasant at least towards humans.

You wouldn’t want to get near me-

You would probably call me an evil cat!

The only thing that would be evil-

The one true factor of evilness

Is just like them

My preconceived notion-

My judgement!

The beginning thought that I had decided to make

That I hate humans!

All my bad traits- at least in regards to humans

Stems from that thought and every action 

I would take from that original thought of hate and judgement!

So, if you hate cats , what does that say about you?

Useless cat

They tell me!

All the time

I wonder why am I here?

I never do anything right

Always in the way of whatever the agenda is.

Maybe I’m just around the wrong humans.

Maybe someone else would appreciate how I am different.

If I’m not good enough for you, there are plenty of other cats in the world.

Find another cat!

If I don’t fit in your mold of what you want

Set me free!

So I can find a human who loves me without  condition!

Don’t call me useless cat.

I don’t exist to be used by you.

Do you see me?

Lost in anxiety

Do you remember me?

I am a picture

Of a cat in your mind

No food for thought

Of the reality of me

Do you see?

Stop seeing me

Start knowing me

I should be simpler!

There’s no need to complicate things.

Complicate myself.

Drama’s useless!

Don’t be pulled in.

Don’t get caught up-

Only leads to a path that goes nowhere.

Simply look ahead-

I only see you.

Almost human…I am

I watch you- above me.

I look to the ground

I wonder

Where do I fit in?

What level? 

Less than-

More than-

Who decides?

Who decides my value?

My rank?

I tiptoe around you 

Always.

Afraid you might snap.

Will you judge who I am?

Am I almost- almost human?

Less than I am.