I haven’t yet learned how to play the game-
The games that other cats play.
I don’t even know the rules-
I’m the odd one out
Never fitting in.

The Reluctant Artist
I haven’t yet learned how to play the game-
The games that other cats play.
I don’t even know the rules-
I’m the odd one out
Never fitting in.
For you human-
What a trip it must be
To encounter someone like me
Shaking your world upside down
Never knowing what to expect
You see me
Knowing what you see
I walk away
Never looking back
Different worlds we belong
A close encounter it is-
Don’t know why we met
I know nothing but perplexity when I see you-
As you see me
How strange it is
This coincidence
This happenstance
Two lives perplexed
By the others needs
A strange encounter it is
Why we collide…lies beyond the stars
Yet we collided with each other
We need each other
Far, far away…
Lies a lonely dog
Sleep peaceful in a dream
An ocean scene
That calls me
Softly…
Sea mist
Fresh salmon
And sand awaits
I watch an imaginary world-
I live outside of-
Yet I dream within it.
I tunnel through its center-
Searching for your heart.
Wishing
Hoping
To become a part of that world.
Still looking in.
Eyes are like mirrors-
Reflecting what’s true
I’ve seen the flicker of an image
I knew long ago
One thousand lonely lifetimes
I wait and go on-
The mirror reflects an image
Lost in my mind
Yet, I grasp for one last look
A feeling
A vibration
The chills up my spine
It’s vague- surge sense overtakes me
A reflection
Yet, nothing is there
Beauty behind emptiness-
I fade
Behind the shadow you left.
I hope the rain stops soon-
I want to see the sunshine again.
I want to see my fur flowing in the wind.
I want to see the light in your eyes-
The sun filled days when I still could purr.
I don’t want to hide
It’s been too long…I’ve been hiding behind these four walls.
I’m sick of shelter- I want to roam free-
To explore a new path.
I live in fear with every breath I take-
You stand six feet away-
I’m afraid of you now.
2020 comes.
My dreams are on hold.
I don’t dare venture out-
Out from this shallow hole of fear and uncertainty-
Yet, I ache for a new day.
Where 2020 fades like a lost memory.
2020-you have filled my heart with so much rain.
I have no where to go.
No one to see.
You say I can’t move-
You say I can’t breathe-
But I am still here
Looking you in the eyes
And, never again will I be bullied by your threats and your arrogance.
2020- I walk alone.
How dare you take away everything I’ve known.
Everyone I’ve held dear.
This rain carries the purge-
Of the good, and the bad
The lost and the found
But deep inside – I just hide..in hopes, it will wear itself out.
So… I can slip by.
And, go my own way.
2020- I am just a cat.
I have a right to be a cat.
Why do you insist on taking away my purr?
Always to and fro
The things I see
She doesn’t
Feel the warmth
Of sitting still
Time is a variable
For us to use
As we will
Sit still
Feel the warmth
Of the light
Focus on nothing
And you will find yourself
I know I won’t live forever
The best I can do is be the greatest version of myself today
The me of yesterday you will never see again-
The future fades with all glimpses of uncertainty
There may not be a “me” tomorrow.
Shine now
Shine in my eyes-
I see you now- right now.
Where my dream lives on.