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I haven’t yet learned how to play the game-

The games that other cats play.

I don’t even know the rules-

I’m the odd one out 

Never fitting in.

For you human-

What a trip it must be

To encounter someone like me

Shaking your world upside down

Never knowing what to expect

You see me

Knowing what you see

I walk away

Never looking back

Different worlds we belong

A close encounter it is-

Don’t know why we met

I know nothing but perplexity when I see you-

As you see me

How strange it is

This coincidence

This happenstance

Two lives perplexed

By the others needs

A strange encounter it is

Why we collide…lies beyond the stars

Yet we collided with each other

We need each other

Far, far away…

Lies a lonely dog

Sleep peaceful in a dream

An ocean scene

That calls me

Softly…

Sea mist 

Fresh salmon

And sand awaits

I watch an imaginary world-

I live outside of-

Yet I dream within it.

I tunnel through its center-

Searching for your heart.

Wishing

Hoping

To become a part of that world.

Still looking in.

Eyes are like mirrors-

Reflecting what’s true

I’ve seen the flicker of an image

I knew long ago

One thousand lonely lifetimes 

I wait and go on-

The mirror reflects an image 

Lost in my mind

Yet, I grasp for one last look

A feeling

A vibration

The chills up my spine

It’s vague- surge sense overtakes me

A reflection 

Yet, nothing is there

Beauty behind emptiness-

I fade

Behind the shadow you left.

I hope the rain stops soon-

I want to see the sunshine again.

I want to see my fur flowing in the wind.

I want to see the light in your eyes-

The sun filled days when I still could purr.

I don’t want to hide 

It’s been too long…I’ve been hiding behind these four walls.

I’m sick of shelter- I want to roam free-

To explore a new path.

I live in fear with every breath I take-

You stand six feet away-

I’m afraid of you now.

2020 comes.

My dreams are on hold.

I don’t dare venture out-

Out from this shallow hole of fear and uncertainty-

Yet, I ache for a new day.

Where 2020 fades like a lost memory.

2020-you have filled my heart with so much rain.

I have no where to go.

No one to see.

You say I can’t move-

You say I can’t breathe-

But I am still here

Looking you in the eyes

And, never again will I be bullied by your threats and your arrogance.

2020- I walk alone.

How dare you take away everything I’ve known.

Everyone I’ve held dear.

This rain carries the purge-

Of the good, and the bad

The lost and the found

But deep inside – I just hide..in hopes, it will wear itself out.

So… I can slip by.

And, go my own way.

2020- I am just a cat.

I have a right to be a cat.

Why do you insist on taking away my purr?

Always to and fro

The things I see

She doesn’t

Feel the warmth

Of sitting still

Time is a variable

For us to use

As we will

Sit still

Feel the warmth

Of the light

Focus on nothing

And you will find yourself

I know I won’t live forever

The best I can do is be the greatest version of myself today

The me of yesterday you will never see again-

The future fades with all glimpses of uncertainty

There may not be a “me” tomorrow.

Shine now

Shine in my eyes-

I see you now- right now.

Where my dream lives on.