Author: mickaela

What’s in the cards? 

I ask myself everyday!

Will I be happy?

Will I be sad?

Will I find my way home?

Who loves me? 

Who cares really?

Do you know the answers?!

Everyday I search for meaning! 

Why do I have to be here?!

I look at you-

You hopeless creature!

And… I realize you need me.

You might not make it another day-

If I wasn’t here.

I am your comfort.

I’m what you love.

You would never ask me to change.

It doesn’t matter where I am

Or what I do.

You still love me.

Even all my flaws and imperfections.

My light always shines in your eyes.

I haven’t yet learned how to play the game-

The games that other cats play.

I don’t even know the rules-

I’m the odd one out 

Never fitting in.

For you human-

What a trip it must be

To encounter someone like me

Shaking your world upside down

Never knowing what to expect

You see me

Knowing what you see

I walk away

Never looking back

Different worlds we belong

A close encounter it is-

Don’t know why we met

I know nothing but perplexity when I see you-

As you see me

How strange it is

This coincidence

This happenstance

Two lives perplexed

By the others needs

A strange encounter it is

Why we collide…lies beyond the stars

Yet we collided with each other

We need each other

Far, far away…

Lies a lonely dog

Sleep peaceful in a dream

An ocean scene

That calls me

Softly…

Sea mist 

Fresh salmon

And sand awaits

I watch an imaginary world-

I live outside of-

Yet I dream within it.

I tunnel through its center-

Searching for your heart.

Wishing

Hoping

To become a part of that world.

Still looking in.

Eyes are like mirrors-

Reflecting what’s true

I’ve seen the flicker of an image

I knew long ago

One thousand lonely lifetimes 

I wait and go on-

The mirror reflects an image 

Lost in my mind

Yet, I grasp for one last look

A feeling

A vibration

The chills up my spine

It’s vague- a sense overtakes me

A reflection 

Yet, nothing is there

Beauty behind emptiness-

I fade

Behind the shadow you left.

I hope the rain stops soon

I want to see the sunshine again.

I want to see my fur flowing in the wind.

I want to see the light in your eyes

The sun filled days when I still could purr.

I don’t want to hide 

It’s been too long…I’ve been hiding behind these four walls.

I’m sick of shelter- I want to roam free

To explore a new path.

I live in fear with every breath I take

You stand six feet away

I’m afraid of you now.

2020 comes.

My dreams are on hold.

I don’t dare venture out

Out from this shallow hole of fear and uncertainty

Yet, I ache for a new day.

Where 2020 fades like a lost memory.

2020-you have filled my heart with so much rain.

I have no where to go.

No one to see.

You say I can’t move

You say I can’t breathe

But I am still here

Looking you in the eyes

And, never again will I be bullied by your threats and your arrogance!

2020- I walk alone.

How dare you take away everything I’ve known!

Everyone I’ve held dear.

This rain carries the purge

Of the good and the bad

The lost and the found

But deep inside, I just hide..in hopes it will wear itself out.

So… I can slip by.

And, go my own way.

2020- I am just a cat.

I have a right to be a cat.

Why do you insist on taking away my purr?

Always to and fro

The things I see

She doesn’t

Feel the warmth

Of sitting still

Time is a variable

For us to use

As we will

Sit still

Feel the warmth

Of the light

Focus on nothing

And you will find yourself